She peered into the darkness staring at the ceiling. She felt the fear creep up her body.
Her head spinned as old tapes repeated over and over again in her head.
These thoughts were sometimes controllable and sometimes not. The thoughts would
effect the way she would feel psyically and mentally. She tried many times to escape
them or to tell them to go away and she would fight them every day constantly like a
battle that is never ending, she wished with all her heart that her mind could be at ease where she wasn’t having obsessive thoughts in her head that she couldn’t control.
She would put her hand on her heart in desperate need of feeling the warmth from her
hand, it would sooth her, she would grasp her body and hold it awhile so she felt safe and it would stop her from feeling like she was going crazy.
Constantly, obsessing over conversations that have been said, what people thought of
her, how depressed and empty she felt, until one day it appeared in her mind, the divine the inner guide the one that was on her side and it saved her from the evil thoughts that often corrupted her mind.
This was her savior, for she listened intently to this voice and it helped her to feel not crazy and instead whenever she would hear the evil voice say that she was weak it would pipe up from the heavens and say,”no your not”, your strong, your a soul survivor and you should be proud of it!
Not understanding where this voice came from she struggled with thinking she was crazy for even having this voice in her head at all and didn’t understand that her inner voice was good and ok to have.
It was hard for her to accept it at first because she didn’t understand why it wanted to help her and why it was on her side. She was used to the evil voice taking over all the time with out this savior helping her out.
But, as time went on, she began to become more comfortable with it and began to slowly accept it more and more for she liked how it was so positive.
She decided to start to believe what it had to say and whenever the evil voice tried to take over if it would replace it with a positive response to let that positive response in and to not worry that much about where it was coming from to just enjoy it’s positivity.
She also started thinking that she was special having been given this special gift that no one knew of accept for her and having not had a family that was very loving or supportive she decided to make this voice as her new love, her friend.
Finally, after all these years of living behind the shadows she had conquered them and now felt beyond the shadows and thankful that she had been given a chance to have someone special love her and help her to love herself and save her from the evil darkness that so often tried to take over her spirit.
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