It was a dark, cold and stormy night; Lizzy peered into the darkness staring up at her ceiling.
The wind howled outside her bedroom window and the rain hit wickedly against the pane.
Lizzy took a deep breath in, a scent of damp musty air filled her nostrils and made her body shiver with disgust.
Her head felt cold and it spun like a merry-go-round.
Obsessive thoughts repeated over and over in her mind causing
her head to jerk back and forth.
These putrid thoughts of killing innocent people: Why couldn’t she control them?!
Why were they taking over her precious mind, body and soul?
She could smell the fresh blood of her victims as they lay their whimpering, gasping for their last breaths as she took one last blow to their head
with the crowbar and watched them in awe as they lay there dying.
The blood was so sweet, as sweet as a candied apple on a hot summer’s day.
She liked the way it trickled down their bodies and on the floor beside them in a thick pool. She liked the way they looked so lifeless and were cold as ice.
She didn’t understand why she didn’t feel bad for killing many innocent victims,
nor did she care.
This was a never-ending addiction for her and it was something
she was just born with.
“The only explanation, She was born Naturally Born Bad”!
“And she was unstoppable and unpredictable”.
No one ever knew when she was going to strike again for she would hide in the bushes
and wait until her prey had reached the target and then she would creep up behind them, strike them and watch them helplessly fall to the ground with a loud groan!
A sly smile spread on Lizzy's face as she lay thinking about it,
embracing in her evil glory.
Friday, April 11, 2008
"Precious Pouch"
It all started when I was walking along the road feeling quite depressed that day, that everything was hopeless and I would never feel the joy of feeling happy again.
“All of a sudden”, I came across this beautiful gem and even though it was a gloomy day that day this gem stood out for me like the most beautiful thing in the world.
I knelt down and picked it up staring at in awe enjoying the fact that when it reflected off the dim light that it looked like rainbow colors swirling in the center.
I started to smile to myself and feeling like I had the most precious thing ever. I put it safely in my pocket and I have kept it since.
It was really a decorative stone used for table arrangements found at the local Wal-Mart but, I thought of it as a gem and to this day, whenever I feel down I hold it in my hand and visualize the day I found it and makes me feel better.
The next item I will tell you about is about a spiritual seed that came from a necklace that was made out of them. I was walking down the street and spotted a street sale on the corner of it.
A long necklace made out of seeds the size of a dime caught my eye and I stopped dead in my tracks. It intrigued me and I asked the guy how much it was. $5 he said.
I checked my pockets and saw that I only had a dollar on me. Feeling frustrated I checked my bag to see if their may have been more coins their.
Nothing. Muttering to myself I started to walk away and then I heard a voice say, Hey come back. I went back and the guy said, what seems to be the problem? I told him that I found the seeded necklace unique and wanted to use it for spiritual purposes and he said take it, it’s on me just like that.
That’s how I knew it was special. So, I took it home and it has been on my wall ever since. I have reason to believe that it brings me luck and I put one of the special seeds in my pouch for keeps.
Another special item that is in the pouch is a Guatemalan spiritual worry doll. This doll was given to me at a rave I was at. That night I was feeling really depressed and I couldn’t stop worrying about things.
This guy comes up to me and asks me if I was ok? I was shocked that he could tell that I was worrying allot. “How did you know?” I stammered. I read your body language from over where I was sitting. I was watching you for awhile now. Feeling a bit nervous I started to turn away from him. He picked this up and at that moment handed me the Guatemalan worry doll.
What’s this? I asked. It’s a very special doll that has spiritual powers. Intrigued I leaned forward to learn more. What it’s purpose does is it takes your worries away. You tell your worries to the doll and put it under your pillow and sleep with it under it and then in the morning your worries are gone.
Cool, I said. That night after I left the rave I went home and told my biggest worry to the doll and put it under my pillow. The next day I realized that my worry wasn’t so intense and I thought to myself, this couldn’t possibly be. A doll couldn’t possibly have these powers but it sure felt good to get my worry out by telling it to it. Then it struck me, that’s why I was feeling better because I had released my worry and expressing our worries to people or things always helps clear the mind and lesson worry.
The next item was a square clear glass pendulum with an angel engraved in it. This item was given to me by a very dear friend of mine I had at one point in my life.
I used to work for him and I don’t remember the whole story behind it unfortunately but I know that he gave it to me and told me that this angel would watch over me and protect me and I wore it every day after that point and eventually the chain broke and all that was left of it was the pendulum and I put it in my pouch so I could have it for all eternity and the angel would watch over me when I needed it to help me through the bad times.
Next is a fortune from a fortune cookie that I got. I kept this from a show I had once performed in. My friend had made a dress out thousands of fortunes and one of the fortunes had really caught my eye so I took it and put it in my pouch hoping it would act as an inspiration for me.
Another was a white gem similar to the blue one that I found on the street. Again this gem made me feel rich instead of feeling poor which was what I felt because I was living in poverty at the time.
Well that’s it, unfortunately their were only six items in this special pouch but I would like to collect more one day to add to it.
This is the only thing I own that has very special significance to me in this way. Other that this, I would have had to make it up and I would rather be honest in my writing then make something up just so it sounds good.
I am excited and eager to know what I will find or receive next to add to it to keep the spirit of the special pouch alive!
“All of a sudden”, I came across this beautiful gem and even though it was a gloomy day that day this gem stood out for me like the most beautiful thing in the world.
I knelt down and picked it up staring at in awe enjoying the fact that when it reflected off the dim light that it looked like rainbow colors swirling in the center.
I started to smile to myself and feeling like I had the most precious thing ever. I put it safely in my pocket and I have kept it since.
It was really a decorative stone used for table arrangements found at the local Wal-Mart but, I thought of it as a gem and to this day, whenever I feel down I hold it in my hand and visualize the day I found it and makes me feel better.
The next item I will tell you about is about a spiritual seed that came from a necklace that was made out of them. I was walking down the street and spotted a street sale on the corner of it.
A long necklace made out of seeds the size of a dime caught my eye and I stopped dead in my tracks. It intrigued me and I asked the guy how much it was. $5 he said.
I checked my pockets and saw that I only had a dollar on me. Feeling frustrated I checked my bag to see if their may have been more coins their.
Nothing. Muttering to myself I started to walk away and then I heard a voice say, Hey come back. I went back and the guy said, what seems to be the problem? I told him that I found the seeded necklace unique and wanted to use it for spiritual purposes and he said take it, it’s on me just like that.
That’s how I knew it was special. So, I took it home and it has been on my wall ever since. I have reason to believe that it brings me luck and I put one of the special seeds in my pouch for keeps.
Another special item that is in the pouch is a Guatemalan spiritual worry doll. This doll was given to me at a rave I was at. That night I was feeling really depressed and I couldn’t stop worrying about things.
This guy comes up to me and asks me if I was ok? I was shocked that he could tell that I was worrying allot. “How did you know?” I stammered. I read your body language from over where I was sitting. I was watching you for awhile now. Feeling a bit nervous I started to turn away from him. He picked this up and at that moment handed me the Guatemalan worry doll.
What’s this? I asked. It’s a very special doll that has spiritual powers. Intrigued I leaned forward to learn more. What it’s purpose does is it takes your worries away. You tell your worries to the doll and put it under your pillow and sleep with it under it and then in the morning your worries are gone.
Cool, I said. That night after I left the rave I went home and told my biggest worry to the doll and put it under my pillow. The next day I realized that my worry wasn’t so intense and I thought to myself, this couldn’t possibly be. A doll couldn’t possibly have these powers but it sure felt good to get my worry out by telling it to it. Then it struck me, that’s why I was feeling better because I had released my worry and expressing our worries to people or things always helps clear the mind and lesson worry.
The next item was a square clear glass pendulum with an angel engraved in it. This item was given to me by a very dear friend of mine I had at one point in my life.
I used to work for him and I don’t remember the whole story behind it unfortunately but I know that he gave it to me and told me that this angel would watch over me and protect me and I wore it every day after that point and eventually the chain broke and all that was left of it was the pendulum and I put it in my pouch so I could have it for all eternity and the angel would watch over me when I needed it to help me through the bad times.
Next is a fortune from a fortune cookie that I got. I kept this from a show I had once performed in. My friend had made a dress out thousands of fortunes and one of the fortunes had really caught my eye so I took it and put it in my pouch hoping it would act as an inspiration for me.
Another was a white gem similar to the blue one that I found on the street. Again this gem made me feel rich instead of feeling poor which was what I felt because I was living in poverty at the time.
Well that’s it, unfortunately their were only six items in this special pouch but I would like to collect more one day to add to it.
This is the only thing I own that has very special significance to me in this way. Other that this, I would have had to make it up and I would rather be honest in my writing then make something up just so it sounds good.
I am excited and eager to know what I will find or receive next to add to it to keep the spirit of the special pouch alive!
"Experience Of Performing Awakening Of The Spiritual Goddess"
I stood behind the door waiting for my cue. Then I heard it, it was our cue. I walked onto the stage.
There on the stage I heard our song begin to play.
"How can you see into my eyes like open doors"? "Bringing me down into my core where I've become so numb"
The song was Bring Me To Life By, Evanescense.
I looked over my shoulder and saw that the other dancers were in their places.
I picked up the crystal ball and placed it in my right hand and circled around it with my left hand just as we had practiced the night before.
The stage lights shined in my eyes and I remember glancing up at the crowd once during the performance and at that moment realized that I couldn’t see anyone because the giant stage lights were shining in my eyes.
The fact that I couldn’t see anyone out in the crowd that would make me nervous helped me to concentrate better.
I tried my best to get the dance right through out the rest of the performance and to not mess up.
Before I knew, it was time to wrap up the piece and get off stage for the next.
As I walked off stage I was glad to hear that people shared positive feedback about it like "nice work", we want more because it was an indication that we had put on a half decent show and that made me feel very proud that the hard work we did had paid off.
There on the stage I heard our song begin to play.
"How can you see into my eyes like open doors"? "Bringing me down into my core where I've become so numb"
The song was Bring Me To Life By, Evanescense.
I looked over my shoulder and saw that the other dancers were in their places.
I picked up the crystal ball and placed it in my right hand and circled around it with my left hand just as we had practiced the night before.
The stage lights shined in my eyes and I remember glancing up at the crowd once during the performance and at that moment realized that I couldn’t see anyone because the giant stage lights were shining in my eyes.
The fact that I couldn’t see anyone out in the crowd that would make me nervous helped me to concentrate better.
I tried my best to get the dance right through out the rest of the performance and to not mess up.
Before I knew, it was time to wrap up the piece and get off stage for the next.
As I walked off stage I was glad to hear that people shared positive feedback about it like "nice work", we want more because it was an indication that we had put on a half decent show and that made me feel very proud that the hard work we did had paid off.
"Awakening Of The Spiritual Goddess Experience"
I was standing behind the door waiting for my cue, throat dry, knees weak, I could feel my heart beating heavily in my chest.
All of a sudden, I heard it, it was our cue.
And now, get ready a performance by the “Fierce Foxy Fires” called the “Awakening of the Spiritual Goddess”.
This is it! This is our cue, I thought. I took a deep breath and walked onto the stage ready to perform as the spiritual goddess in the story.
That’s exactly what this performance was about, a spiritual goddess that dies from her emotional pain and then is reborn into a new light.
It all started when a spiritual goddess turns to a crystal ball in hopes that it will help get rid of her emotional pain she deals with on a daily basis.
But as she peers into the crystal ball, her demons inside of her come to life and suck all of her energy out of her instead.
Terrified, the spiritual goddess tries to get away from them but, unfortunately the demons are way to powerful for her to defeat herself.
The goddess tries with all her might to conquer her mind and to tell herself that these demons are not real that they are all in her head but it doesn’t’ work.
The demons end up sucking her energy dry by attacking her brain to the point that she gives in and they destroy her for good and she ends up dieing.
Lying their dead and hopeless on the floor the demons dance around her celebrating their victory of having defeated her ready to bring her to hell.
All of a sudden, an angel appears in the darkness and since the angel is more powerful then the demons and is their to bring the spiritual goddess back to life, she attacks the demons to the point where the demons eventually give up and realizing that they can’t win they vanish into thin air in a cloud of smoke.
The angel walks over to the spiritual goddess and touches her head lightly with her wand, this brings her back to life.
The goddess then rises with the angel and they go off in the distance together symbolizing that the spiritual goddess has been reborn in to a
new life.
All of a sudden, I heard it, it was our cue.
And now, get ready a performance by the “Fierce Foxy Fires” called the “Awakening of the Spiritual Goddess”.
This is it! This is our cue, I thought. I took a deep breath and walked onto the stage ready to perform as the spiritual goddess in the story.
That’s exactly what this performance was about, a spiritual goddess that dies from her emotional pain and then is reborn into a new light.
It all started when a spiritual goddess turns to a crystal ball in hopes that it will help get rid of her emotional pain she deals with on a daily basis.
But as she peers into the crystal ball, her demons inside of her come to life and suck all of her energy out of her instead.
Terrified, the spiritual goddess tries to get away from them but, unfortunately the demons are way to powerful for her to defeat herself.
The goddess tries with all her might to conquer her mind and to tell herself that these demons are not real that they are all in her head but it doesn’t’ work.
The demons end up sucking her energy dry by attacking her brain to the point that she gives in and they destroy her for good and she ends up dieing.
Lying their dead and hopeless on the floor the demons dance around her celebrating their victory of having defeated her ready to bring her to hell.
All of a sudden, an angel appears in the darkness and since the angel is more powerful then the demons and is their to bring the spiritual goddess back to life, she attacks the demons to the point where the demons eventually give up and realizing that they can’t win they vanish into thin air in a cloud of smoke.
The angel walks over to the spiritual goddess and touches her head lightly with her wand, this brings her back to life.
The goddess then rises with the angel and they go off in the distance together symbolizing that the spiritual goddess has been reborn in to a
new life.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
The Girl Beyond The Shadows Piece
She peered into the darkness staring at the ceiling. She felt the fear creep up her body.
Her head spinned as old tapes repeated over and over again in her head.
These thoughts were sometimes controllable and sometimes not. The thoughts would
effect the way she would feel psyically and mentally. She tried many times to escape
them or to tell them to go away and she would fight them every day constantly like a
battle that is never ending, she wished with all her heart that her mind could be at ease where she wasn’t having obsessive thoughts in her head that she couldn’t control.
She would put her hand on her heart in desperate need of feeling the warmth from her
hand, it would sooth her, she would grasp her body and hold it awhile so she felt safe and it would stop her from feeling like she was going crazy.
Constantly, obsessing over conversations that have been said, what people thought of
her, how depressed and empty she felt, until one day it appeared in her mind, the divine the inner guide the one that was on her side and it saved her from the evil thoughts that often corrupted her mind.
This was her savior, for she listened intently to this voice and it helped her to feel not crazy and instead whenever she would hear the evil voice say that she was weak it would pipe up from the heavens and say,”no your not”, your strong, your a soul survivor and you should be proud of it!
Not understanding where this voice came from she struggled with thinking she was crazy for even having this voice in her head at all and didn’t understand that her inner voice was good and ok to have.
It was hard for her to accept it at first because she didn’t understand why it wanted to help her and why it was on her side. She was used to the evil voice taking over all the time with out this savior helping her out.
But, as time went on, she began to become more comfortable with it and began to slowly accept it more and more for she liked how it was so positive.
She decided to start to believe what it had to say and whenever the evil voice tried to take over if it would replace it with a positive response to let that positive response in and to not worry that much about where it was coming from to just enjoy it’s positivity.
She also started thinking that she was special having been given this special gift that no one knew of accept for her and having not had a family that was very loving or supportive she decided to make this voice as her new love, her friend.
Finally, after all these years of living behind the shadows she had conquered them and now felt beyond the shadows and thankful that she had been given a chance to have someone special love her and help her to love herself and save her from the evil darkness that so often tried to take over her spirit.
Her head spinned as old tapes repeated over and over again in her head.
These thoughts were sometimes controllable and sometimes not. The thoughts would
effect the way she would feel psyically and mentally. She tried many times to escape
them or to tell them to go away and she would fight them every day constantly like a
battle that is never ending, she wished with all her heart that her mind could be at ease where she wasn’t having obsessive thoughts in her head that she couldn’t control.
She would put her hand on her heart in desperate need of feeling the warmth from her
hand, it would sooth her, she would grasp her body and hold it awhile so she felt safe and it would stop her from feeling like she was going crazy.
Constantly, obsessing over conversations that have been said, what people thought of
her, how depressed and empty she felt, until one day it appeared in her mind, the divine the inner guide the one that was on her side and it saved her from the evil thoughts that often corrupted her mind.
This was her savior, for she listened intently to this voice and it helped her to feel not crazy and instead whenever she would hear the evil voice say that she was weak it would pipe up from the heavens and say,”no your not”, your strong, your a soul survivor and you should be proud of it!
Not understanding where this voice came from she struggled with thinking she was crazy for even having this voice in her head at all and didn’t understand that her inner voice was good and ok to have.
It was hard for her to accept it at first because she didn’t understand why it wanted to help her and why it was on her side. She was used to the evil voice taking over all the time with out this savior helping her out.
But, as time went on, she began to become more comfortable with it and began to slowly accept it more and more for she liked how it was so positive.
She decided to start to believe what it had to say and whenever the evil voice tried to take over if it would replace it with a positive response to let that positive response in and to not worry that much about where it was coming from to just enjoy it’s positivity.
She also started thinking that she was special having been given this special gift that no one knew of accept for her and having not had a family that was very loving or supportive she decided to make this voice as her new love, her friend.
Finally, after all these years of living behind the shadows she had conquered them and now felt beyond the shadows and thankful that she had been given a chance to have someone special love her and help her to love herself and save her from the evil darkness that so often tried to take over her spirit.
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